Thousands of Dream

2012-01-12T15:12:00.000+08:00

The remedy in years to come... 2012,

It's the year 2012!!! yeappy!!!

I'm so glad that what ever has happened in the year 2011 has already been washed away. It's really a good start to start a new chapter for me. I totally can't wait to open a new book of my life because this year will be the most important year of my life.... Planning a wedding!!! Yeah!!

I have to say, even though my parents are the once helping out with the wedding preparations more but it still feels like a blessing. A blessing that everyone will be invited for next years wedding and the fact that my parents are happy with preparing it. It's not the end of the year yet so hopefully everything will be ok.. Hehehe.. well we have to wait for the end of the year to know the results..

Hopefully things will turn out pretty great in few months to come, especially at work.. kekeke....

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-12-07T16:46:00.000+08:00

Dress hunting,

Hijab Style: Turkish Bridal Designs: Bala Couture (clipped to polyvore.com)

Oh my.. I love this dress.. It's so super duper pretty!!!! I have to say bala couture is really good. It's hijab range is superb..

2011-12-07T15:17:00.001+08:00

moving on,

Ooo.. it has been a long time since i updated this blog. Had been busy spending precious time at work and with almost everyone. Even though it has been rainy the past few days or weeks it still hasn't stopped me from doing what i want.

Last week went out with all the cuzzies. Had lots of fun karaoke.

oh and guess what we had finally set a month for our wedding. It will be on the september 2013. Awesome huh?? ahahahaha.. Now all i need is to find my nikah gown. The rest of it can leave it up to my parents. hehehe... Hmm.. hopefully i could get a nice one. Still couldn't decide what type of gown i want. I think i should continue online shopping for wedding gown this minute.. I guess i've got to leave now... I'll update some other time k..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-11-01T16:05:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday!!

Happy 22nd birthday to me!! hehehe!!...

Omg.. i've turned 22 and a year older.. Hiazz... getting too old... anywayz, celebrated my birthday with all my love ones.

Early morning we went to sent my fiance's mother for haj. Then at 10am i met my fiance to catch the show In Time. The movie was awesome. We then went over from The Cathay to Plaza Singapura for lunch.

None of us ate breakfast so most probably it was like eating branch.. hehehe..

OO..and the best part about the birthday celebration that day was having my whole family ate dinner with me at seoul garden.. hehehe.. Totally love it!! However i'm so angry at blackie!! my brother in law is so dead for not attending my birthday!! Make sure i don't see him if not his going to get from me.. hmph!!

Oo.. anyway i would like to thank all my friends and family for the wishes and present. Thanks so much.. Love u guyz lots..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-10-10T16:57:00.000+08:00

Finally a week off from work,

Finally i had 1 week break from work. Hmm.. have been saving up for the holidays. Finally far away from work and stress. It was difficult to get a break from work. What to say i'm a nurse so we basically work like 24//7. Hahaha...

Went over to thailand to get some peace and quiet as well as some fresh air. It totally felt refreshing being able to go over to phuket not worrying about the flood. Luckily it was not raining heavily there. Bought lots of jerseys there and had a lot of yummy food. hehehe.. The most important part of the holiday is being able to spend time with my dearie. He has been having a lot of activities at work lately so the trip is for him to have some relax and fun. I totally miss having him around almost everyday. hehehe..

Anywayz, we also celebrated my dearie's results for his part-time school exams. Hopefully he'll pass the upcoming modules. Insyallah, he will be able to succeed at work with his continuation of upgrading through studying....

Got back to singapore safely and had swensense's once we touched down.. hehe.. thanks mummy, daddy. Hehehe.. Hopefully next year we will be able to have a holiday again. This time round to china!!! Most probably we won't have a problem there rather then when we were at phuket. They could speak a bit of english but not that well. We had a little problem communicating. Unfortunately at china, there won't be any problem because i can speak chinese and understand it. Even though my chinese is not that excellent but it's still passable.... hehehe..

Hmm.. preparations for the weddings are around the corner and it has somewhat make me very anxious. So many things to decide. I think i'll let my parents settle it hahaha... Hiazz...

Hmm.. gonna start work again tomorrow. Hopefully i will be able to get myself on track after a long week of holiday.. Patients please be nice to me ok!!!

P.S. sorry for not updating the blog. Had been very busy.. hehehe...

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-08-02T14:22:00.000+08:00

Happy Nurses Day!!

Happy nurses day to all my colleagues and my nurses friends. The whole hospital celebrated the nurses day, few days before the actual nurses day with on stage performance of Hey, Florence! at Suntec City.

It was totally awesome and fun even though in the beginning i accidentally slept.. hehehe..

Anyway we had so much fun.

I totally miss having outings with colleagues. Hopefully we will have more fun outings again. hahaha...

Anyway i finally applied for a house and guess what i finally got it. It was so awesome. Went to hdb with dearest to choose the unit and we finally got the unit.. I was totally happy.

Can't wait to move into the house in about 2-3 years time. Hehehe.. My own house with dearest.. Finally!!! So excited. How i wish it could be up faster. Hehehe... Anywayz i'm so happy that everything went well. Hopefully everything between us goes well in the near future. Can't wait to start preparing for my wedding. Hehehe.. yeappy!! It totally feels so great.

I wish all the best to those who are applying a house at central 7..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-07-12T15:41:00.000+08:00

Congratulations,

Congratulations Kak fana!! You're finally settled down... At least we don't have to worry so much about you anymore. We are totally happy for you and for having a husband. Everyone in this house don't have to think about settling your problems with setting up the wedding anymore. Ahahaha.. Everybody has been too tired. Too tired in managing your wedding. And you totally owe everyone a big feast for helping out and making the event less chaotic.

I'm happy that it went well even though my toes were bleeding from those killing high heels. I want to thank my dearest fiance for helping out in the big event. I owe you sweetheart...

Hopefully they will have a smooth sailing journey ahead of them. I wish them all the best.

Oh and thanks to all my friends and cousins for coming...

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-06-21T22:51:00.000+08:00

Looking forward to this sat and sun,

Things has been going on smoothly as days passed by at work. I'm glad that i finally learnt the technique of doing things a little more faster. That is preparing things early and gauge the clock as if like your sitting for exams waiting for 12pm to be the last timing you'll get to see the papers.. Hahaha...

So far it has been ok for me. I guess i have been in a good mood due to recent events that had happened. Hahaha.. However, no matter how laid back i am, i still can't slack. Hehe..

I totally appreciate my fiance who has been my listening ear and also by dearest best friend atika. Even though my fiance has been busy himself, he still made some time for me. I totally love him!!

I totally can't wait for this weekend. It's our 1yr anniversary.. Yeah.. Can't wait to celebrate it with him. Hehehe... Hopefully he won''t be tired due to a long weekdays of work, study, and ippt.

Anyways, JCI 3rd internal audit is this week. Hopefully they won't ask us too much question. Oh god, please make it easy for us at least.. Thank you!

Anywayz, sorry for not updating the blog for so long. Have been working on the weekends so didn't had the time to update.. Hehe..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-06-05T15:50:00.000+08:00

Work, work, work,

Sorry for not updating my blog. Have been really busy with work, work, work. Actually i can't stand work, but oh well it's part and parcel of life. I need to work to earn money. But apparently there has been so many problems at work. Sad to say, it's crumpling my life down. I'm so stressed with it actually.

Not sure whether i should challenge myself by staying on. I myself also not sure. Seriously, i feel like giving up. Imagine, having to nurse more than 15 patients in one whole day... That is if u're unlucky lah.. If u're lucky then u'll nurse less than 10. Hopefully i'm already familiar with the work and the area at work. I just need to brush up some of my techniques with handling report writing. I'm still slow at that. It's difficult when you're ward sister tells you not to write too long winded like an essay.

Luckily i have support from my fiance. I'm thankful that his also there for me other then my best friends. Arghh... Ok enough with work.

I spent my off day yesterday watching movies from morning till night with my dearest fiance. It was so awesome. ahahaha.... I totally love it. The hangover II was totally funny.. The Dylan the Dog was also awesome. Wanted to watch X-men first class.. Unfortunately it was fully booked.. Damn!!! ahahaha..... it's ok.. however i did had alot of fun. Can't wait to celebrate my anniversary end of this month. ..

Hmm.. but first i must study for my BCLs exam.. Hmm... hopefully i will be able to get it... Fighting!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-05-19T15:42:00.000+08:00

Stress at work,

Wah it has really been a long time since i updated my blog. Hehe.. Sorry, sorry.. have been totally busy with a lot of work. Everyday work, work, work then when comes to off day, i'm out so i haven't get a chance to open up my laptop and update the blog. Pharmaco exam was difficult. Studied but the ones that i studied didn't came out and my mind when blank when i sat for the exam. So guess what, i failed the exam and i have to resit for it next week.. I guess.. Walao.. so stressful.

What i know off is most of my friends who has been working are quitting soon. Hmm... I'll try my best to stay on. Hopefully everything will goes fine by the time my probation at work is about to end. Tiring seh. Imagine having to nurse so many patients at one go. I have been handling all the cases and i tell you, i'm still like half drowning. My ward is a transit ward so basically patients come and go as soon as they have a bed at the other ward. The most irritating part is having lazy doctors to clerk the case. Seriously.. some of the doctors are so super duper lazy. Walao then keep passing around the case but doesn't want to clerk the case. Ass holes right?? Hiazz.. then until the patient got transferred over to another ward the case not clerk yet.. Hiazz........

Other then that i got bullied sometimes at work by my senior staff nurse, so i'm trying my best to also play their game.. Well you know what i mean. Still trying to be good at playing their game though.. Hopefully i will be able to read them and get a good game plan. Hiazz... Life at work is so chaotic.. Hopefully i won't have any migraine anymore.

Please take care of yourself people!! Most importantly eat healthy!! Not like me ok!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-04-17T23:02:00.000+08:00

Busy week,

It has been the most busiest week ever. With so many things to obtain before being dispatched to ward, it kind of made me feel tired. Nevertheless, it has been really fun during orientation. Though there's a lot of things to get signed during probation phase, i hope i'll be able to work in the ward that they have given me. Even though the environment is so different but the colleagues there are so on. We are all like maids, cleaner, stock keeper and waiters... other then being a nurse that is.. hahaha.. but it's still fun. Hahaha...

After few days we did not meet. I finally made time to meet my fiance. Weekend is the only time we got to spend time together meaning fully. We had lots of fun at sentosa playing the LURGE. haha.. we played twice and we took cable car to vivo. It was fun spending time there almost half the day.. hahaha.. Hmm.. hopefully we get to spent time again next week before i start my shift hours....

It has totally been a long day............ Tired..... Totally going to turn in already.. *Yawn** kk.. Gd nights!!

take care aitz,

ciao

2011-04-09T16:24:00.000+08:00

Sick, sick, sick... Happy Birthday Mummy!!

It has been a bit of a bad week for me. The week started off well with lots of plans lined up before hand, i was totally looking forward for it.

Well that's the bad part. When you look forward to it and it turns out not like what you planned. Hiazz.. Everything went well when wednesday almost approached, i was already sick. Damn! I had terrible headache and had high fever on wednesday. So mummy and daddy took me to see the doctor. I had like 2 days MC. Having MC was boring. on the 2nd day of my MC, i thought i was totally fine. I even went to planned out to celebrate mummy's birthday with the whole family including my fiance. We all ate out at Sakura.

So there i was happily thought that i was ok. As usual woke up early for work, ate my medicine before going to work and went off to work around 6:40 am ish like that... So happily took the train. So i had to like stand in the train all the way. Nearly reaching paya lebar, my body started to shiver, started to vomit and broke into cold sweats. Damn! I was like "what the hell"... "Please don't do this to me".. I couldn't take it so i alighted at Paya Lebar station. I had to find toilet. And in there i basically had stomach cramps, profuse cold sweats, vomiting and i started to shiver badly. Luckily, mummy and daddy hasn't left for malaysia yet. It was irritating having to fall sick again at a wrong timing. Hiazz... I totally have bad luck.

Anywayz, i had to see a doctor that day, made some calls, and i had MC the whole day. Hmm... how great!!

So much for having a fun week!!

Oh anywayz, dearest bought me teddy bear.. It's a teddy bear that i really wanted after we had a few fights which made me cry for the first time. But everything is well and our relationship is still as strong as ever. So don't worry too much k.. F.Y.I The teddy bear is almost the same hide as my elder sister. So basically you know how tall this teddy is lah huh... hahaha... Hmm.. Still finding a cupboard space for the teddy.. In the mean time, this lovely teddy is sleeping the room with the other 2 human being. Hehehe... Thanks Darling for the teddy!! I made you spent so much for the teddy!! I'm happy to have it. It keeps me company since your going to be busy soon with work and school. hehehe.. I love you!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-04-04T21:07:00.000+08:00

Embarking on journey of an SN,

Lectures has begun and the laziness always creeps onto me whenever i have to attend orientation. It's not about not wanting to attend it but it's just that the topics they went through with us almost every single day is so dry. It makes me fall asleep whenever they talk about service quality and what not for about 2-4 hours. Wah.. I'm totally quite shock when i see their documentation in sgh. It's different from cgh. And i have to say they really particular with service.

Being a nurse is tougher than i thought. Not only do you have to document and know your skills well, your service must be totally excellent. Wah.. It's too much don't you think so? I mean nurses are human being too right?? Well what to do the ones we're serving are human being too with high expectations and no humanity at all. What has the world totally turned into?

Anyways, after a long tiring week at work, i finally get to spent my time with my dearest after work on saturday. We went to spent time together at the Singapore flyers and after that we went window shopping. Hahaha... No matter how tired i was that day i still had lots of fun.

Sunday, had to woke up way early morning. Had family bonding time with my dearest family. Spent almost the whole day out and in the afternoon aunty ack joined us. She bought 2 laptops and went over to our house. Too many people in the house that day.. hahaha..

This week has been very packed for me. But i'm thankful that i get to spent a lot of my time with all my love ones..

I'm totally blessed and thankful...

P.S.: Happy Birthday dearest sis Atika!! Stay healthy this year k.. I'll pray for your love life so that it will blossom soon with lots of love and longivity.

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-03-21T15:46:00.000+08:00

SGH Staff nurse Suhailah reporting!!

Holidays are almost over for me and i seem to be having lots of fun lately.

Oh i must say sorry in advance, for not updating my blog. Hahaha.. Keen on updating my blog.. But every time when i'm on the internet, i end up forgetting about updating it hahaha..

Anyways, after my engagement day with my dearest, i went over to Genting Highlands for 3 days 2 nights. That was a week after the engagement. At that point of time i had already quit my job at Mount Elizabeth Clinic. I get to say my last goodbyes with all my precious colleagues and of course not forgetting Basirah, who came to take over me.. Hehehe..

I had a total great time at Genting Highlands. There were a lot of shopping done, since it rained the whole time i was there. Hehe..However, the greatness of it all was not having any parents to complain all the time.

I have to say, even though the hotel is small but it's still cozy and cold. Hmm... how about a next time visit there??... i think the next time i visit malaysia it won't be there for sure. Instead, I will go over to port dickson.. But when will be my next time??

Starting over at SGH in 2 weeks time. So i most probably have to put on hold about going on holiday in the next few months to come. **Sigh** Hmm.. never mind..

I'm just about nearly 3 weeks engage and my future mother-in-law has decided to make the engagement process faster. Hiazz... seriously... There is no way i did agreed to it.. for sure.. confirm, chop guarantee.. hahaha... I still need to save more money. Hopefully she understands...

i think i've gtg.. want to watch drama.. hehehe...

take care aitz,

ciao

2011-02-28T23:39:00.001+08:00

Engaged,

My engagement ceremony was held last saturday. With only dearest family members, cousins, uncles, aunties and close friends, what turned out suppose to be a small event become a big one.. Hehehe...

I'm so happy that everything went well. All the hard earn planning that i did for the past few 1 1/2 months finally paid off. With the help of everyone, everything went according to plan. Well except for the part where there were more family members from the guy side that came over. Luckily mummy and daddy was very understanding.

Helped out with my sister's engagement before so i practically knew what i should and should not have. Anyway, i'm satisfied with my mak andam. Kak Nor was really a great artist. She put on for me the makeup just once and everybody ends up not recognizing me. Hahaha.. Anyway i like her touches though. It's soft and not very heavy. Hopefully in the future i could call kak Nor to help out with my make up again. hehehe...

Oh anyway, today is my 2nd day as someone else fiancee. I totally feel so awkward saying that but i guess i have to get use to it soon. Hahaha.. Being engage seems rather fun though. I get more special treatments from my fiance. Hahaha.. Even though i enjoy the special treatments but i don't want him to work too hard on it. Because having someone working hard on something which he don't usually do that often is the same as forcing the person to do something that they don't want to do. Hmm.. Hopefully it will get better..

This occassion is gonna be something i will definitely will not be able to forget. The reason being, is because, on the day we got engaged was the day we suppose to celebrate our 8 month anniversary. Hahaha... Such a coincidence right? hehe..

Oh yar, not forgetting. I want to thank everyone who has made time for me and my special event. Thanks for the gifts too guyz. Love the gifts. I promise i'll treasure the gifts. You guyz has been very amazing. My photographer (Asrari) and i will try our best to produce all the nice photos as soon as possible. Hmm.. But i don't want to rush my photographer because he has to work too during his spare times.. hahaha...

P.S. Oh before i leave this blog. I want everyone to take care of themselves k. It's the sick period!! So please drink plenty of water and stay fresh. Eat healthily people!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-02-06T16:10:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!!,

Happy Chinese New Year guyz!!!

Wah for the first time ever, i didn't celebrated Chinese New Year.. So sad...

Oh well..

Anyway, my dearest darling and me went over to science center and the CSI exhibition yesterday.

It has revamped a lot. And i have to say it's much better than the old ones when i went the last time.

There were new areas there. I had fun though.

We even went over to the CSI exhibition which was next to it. That i have to say was a little boring. There were so many people and the places were so small. You had to do this kind of worksheet to find out the clues and stuff like that.

It was also so stuffy anyway. My bf couldn't take it after nearly half an hour there. It was total chaos there. Hahaha..

After almost 4 to 5 hours at the science center, we went over to chinatown. We seriously thought that there weren't a lot of people, but once we reached there our thoughts were so damn wrong. Wah! Apparently people were still shopping and looking for things.. Hahaha... I have to say, it's totally so different.

I totally had fun the whole day yesterday.. Oh sorry about missing the badminton game.. hehehe.. Hmm.. hopefully another long weekends will come again some day soon. Hahaha.. I totally love it. Unfortunately, once i start working at sgh, i won't be able to have a long weekend break. Hiazz... I have to say, i'm thankful that i have the time now to do what ever i want to do.

Hehe.. Left 2 weeks and 5 days more to the day.. Hopefully, everything will go on smoothly. And hopefully my photographer didn't get his day wrong.. hehe..

P.S: Happy Chinese New year!! Thank you for all the chinese new year gifts. Hmm... I think i should treat everyone at work a breakfast tomorrow..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-01-28T21:36:00.000+08:00

Tired,

I get so tired these days. I guess it's because i don't exercise a lot.

One thing for sure, i'm tired of having my parents dictating what i should and should not do. It's not as if like i'm gonna run away or get myself pregnant before i get married.

I'm just tired of hearing their so called protective measures. I want to have fun too. I'm 21 turning 22 and i don't get to go to places that i want to go or hang out with friends that often. Every time i protest the same sentences comes out..."So you want to be like your elder sister izzit?"..."She turns out to be like that, you also want to end up like her izzit"..

Hello!!! First up i'm not her and secondly i'm not as wild like her...

Which part do they not understand?? It goes the same to education, marriage, money, and what not. If they keep doing that, then when the hell am i going to learn to be more independent. They keep doing these to me as as if i'm like a robot able to listen to them and carry out everything they say.

I don't like it because it kind of affect people around me...

I feel bad turning down friends when they ask me to go out with them, or have fun at chalets or even have supper before going back.

It gets even worst when some people don't understand me and they end up thinking i'm not making them important in my life.

I never seem good enough in every aspects of my life.

I never seem to be able to please everyone in life.

How i wish there are so many replicas of me. That way when i'm suppose to be home, the other is out with a friend, and the other goes to work, and the other cooks, and the other is making plans for future studies and so forth...

That way i won't have to tell white lie...

That way i can totally make everyone happy...

That way i won't have to scratch my head and figure out what i did wrong..

If only...

Hiazz....

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-01-23T15:50:00.000+08:00

Preparations on the way,

It has been a very PMS week for me.

So whoever comes in the way that makes me wants to flare up, ends up crying.

Seriously, when ever the periods come, i can't seem to suppress my emotions. So in the end, my boyfriend always ends up saying sorry. He always does things that makes me easily angry, so he always ends up getting scolded by me.. Hehehe...

Anyway, there isn't anything special this week. Only the fact that it's going to be the end of the month soon and i can't wait for my pay day.. hehe.. other then that there is like about 4 more weeks to go till the day of my engagement.

And another 1 more month or so till the day i stop working at the clinic and move on with my life in a hospital. Hmm... I guess i'll always end up working in the hospital all my life.

Oh talking about hospital, i bumped into faezah on saturday when i was on the way to work. It must have been a long time since i saw her because we kept on chatting till the train stops at faezah's destination. Oh i really miss schooling.... Once school starts it is really very difficult to catch up with friends.

Haiyah i didn't get the bto again... This is the 2nd time.. then i have to wait, wait, wait. Stupid, stupid. I'm getting so irritated with applying a house already. Hdb is making first timers wait as if like they get to control you. It's so irritating. Never get a house is the same thing as not getting married in 3 years time...

Hiazz... Preparations, preparations, preparations.... Hopefully everything will go well. Some how i feel so tired already. I do have many doubts about the preparations though. I have no idea why. Something doesn't feels right. Hmm....

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-01-17T22:04:00.000+08:00

Dilema, Dilema, Dilema

(OMG! I think i have gained weight a lot!! Sight... I should totally go on diet)

It has been few weeks since i updated my blog.. Hehe.. Was sick for the past few weeks till i ended up in A&E and got myself a jabbed. Hahaha... I wasted my 3 weeks or so at home sick and trying to recover from that contagious sickness.. Hahaha...

Anywayz, so much preparation to do. My engagement day is like few more weeks away and some people just have to make things worst. For a start my aunty is unable to accept that i'm going to get engage.

Secondly, mummy and daddy are fighting over who is going to represent who.

Thirdly, people fighting about who i should and should not invite.

I have to say at the end of it i'm so super tired. Tired of their fighting and tired of their nonsense.

My psychiatric doctor at my work place once told me that i keep falling sick is because i'm stress of something. But most of the time i kept denying until one day aunty ivy told me that i might not know what i'm stress about because i haven't analyze anything. Well, i guess aunty ivy was right. Now i know what i'm totally stress out about.... People around me.. And guess what it's not about the preparation of the engagement but the people who are coming and getting involve.

Seriously... I'm tired of hearing it. Then now after telling daddy that i want only the family to take care of things, daddy got so frustrated and he didn't talk much to me. It's so annoying. Hello!!! can i just be like the UN.. Just stay in the middle of the fence and not agree to anybody. It's free country that i want!!! No siding democratic alliance, no siding republican alliance.. Just world peace!! It seems so easy but yet it's still so difficult.

I for once hate when both sides of the family couldn't get a long with each other. To put on top of it, i'm risking my once in a lifetime engagement (Hopefully it's once in a lifetime ok!!) for all this people. My engagement day, is like the battle field. If treaty is not being kept within the limit, off it goes. Even using a bazooka also can't be compared with the power of their bickering and their complaints from both sides.

Seriously!! For god sake!! Can't everyone just pretend to get a long for once!!! FOR ONCE!!! PLEASE!!!

Can i just put and end to it just like that?? Decision, decision, decision..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2011-01-01T09:56:00.001+08:00

2011,

Goodbye 2010!!

2010 has been the most special year..

I started 2010 in a very rough route...

But with much help and encouragement from everyone around me, it gave me hope to move on and look forward.

2010, Hiazz... How i wish it didn't turn out the way it was..

But every closed doors they is always an opening somewhere..

And i'm thankful.. Thankful for everyone that has pushed me and made me who i am today.. I'm thankful to all my best friends.. cousins.. lecturers.. CI Haryati and staff of ward 36.. not forgetting my parents.. as well as my dearest boyfriend...

Thank you so much guyz!!

So much has happened in 2010...

Hopefully 2011 will be a great year for me...

Hmm.. However, i'm having a bad start for 2011.. I'm sick.. again!! It's so frustrating you know. My anti-bodies are not helping at all. I want to spent the start of 2011 by going out but in the end i'm stuck at home after work ends on friday. I couldn't even stand standing so long because of my stomach flu. It's so irritating. I think i should go see the doctor and get my self a jab.

Oh yar, by the way, I'm getting engaged in this year on the 26th of february.. Hmm.. so much preperation to be done.. and yes kakak is getting married this year too on the 3rd of july.. So many upcoming event. Hopefully i'm able to go through it.. hahaha...

Anywayz, Happy New Year guyz!!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-12-23T22:50:00.000+08:00

New Family,

It's already about 1 1/2 months i'm working in the clinic and i love it. The warmth they have been giving me is super family like. I have to say being the youngest and the fattest in the clinic really is fun. Hehehe...

Oh have been working for the past few days and i'm kind of feeling shag. I don't really know why, but i really feel so shag. The problem with working there is that i'm getting fatter by the day. Damn.. I so need to go on diet because if not my engagement clothes will look fat on me.. hiazz...

Yes, Yes...

I'm getting engaged next year. It has already been confirmed, and so is the date. I have to say it's the first time, i'm preparing something important in my life by myself. And of course, with the help of mummy too..

The date has been confirmed, on the 26th of February next year. Hahaha.. And guess what??

It is gonna be a very blue event.. Hahaha.. Blue clothes, blue cake... hahaha.. but of course lah some of the gifts are not in blue. Hehehe.. I'm so looking forward to it.. hehehe...

Oh just only applied the punggol BTO that has just came out..

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Hmm.. hopefully we get the house. The estate takes about 6 years to be build so yes... Hopefully we will be able to get it... 6 years of engagement... You're thinking, it's too long right?? hahaha.. yeah, well we might change plans if we get the house in this housing estate. We might only get engaged about 4 years then get married.. You'll never know. With all the pressure i get from both sides, i think too long engage also is not gonna be a good idea.. hahaha.. see how lah.. Most importantly is getting a house that we are able to pay first. Marriage is the later stage.. The longer, the better....

Yeah, tomorrow clinic half day.. I'm so happy!! Finally, i'm going back home way earlier on a weekday... hahaha

Oh anyway, Merry Christmas guyz!!!!

P.S. sorry for not updating for the past few weeks.. too busy going out lately.. Will try to update more ok..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-12-18T18:44:00.000+08:00

So many thing during a short period of time,

It's the holidays for all the young children but for young adults like me is off to work. With fiyah gone and mummy and daddy gone, i was damn all alone at home. Fana was so busy with work and didn't came home at all.

Anyway with everyone away, i spent 2 days out with atika. I even spent my time out eating dinner as planned with tika, suk and my bf at sakura. The next day i went out with atika after work and went to eat sakura. Got a few hiccups here and there with my bf during the shopping spree with atika.

Mummy and daddy has finally came home and i'm waiting for the little brat to come home too.. hehehe..

i want all my souvenirs hehehe..

oh yesterday celebrated Christmas by ordering pizza at work.. There wasn't many patients and we celebrated as if like there is no tomorrow. Hahaha... Loving the work place as i stay longer.. hmm...

ok.. gonna have fun today cause for the 2nd time i'm at home on a saturday.. yes, yes i know... I have been grounded for like 2 weeks so my 2 weeks will be up this coming sunday.. Next week i will sure go out on the saturday... Not really caring because i'm so upset that i'm not going anywhere. Hmph!

Never mind... Next year!!!

P.S. Daddy!!! Happy Birthday!!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-11-30T22:04:00.000+08:00

Working life,

Last 2 weeks went out with dearest bf even though i was still sick. Yes.. i was coughing with a lot of phlegm.. Took so many medicine but yet it was still the same. Then finally, bought a traditional medicine. It then got better. Coughing all the way at work was damn tiring.. Hahaha.. Hmm.. Went out to watch Harry Potter.. Hehehe.. Well it's not that bad though. But it was worth it, of course.

Yeah, then we went to go get couple ring.. hehehe.. Thanks darling..

Hmm.. things then went well at work.. Love most of the patient. Very friendly and super rich.. hahaha...

Then last week, met atika after work on the weekday. It was a totally crazy day out but i totally enjoyed it. It was a distress period. It has been a long time since i had that. Then saturday went over after work to meet atika. We had lunched and went over to ITE simei to catch the jazz band (ITE Jazzanova) play. I love their concert. There were a lot of singing, solo and lots more. Oh yar, forget to tell you, me and atika finally get to meet up with suk's girlfriend. Hmm...

oh well.. hahaha..

Then sunday went out with dearest bf to watch Rapunzel. It was also a nice show. Watched the 3D one hehehe..

Mummy, daddy, kept complaining that i'm not at home during the weekends. But that's the only time i can really spent time out the whole day. Even though i'm tired i still want to go out. Meet everyone if can.. hehehe... Enjoy the time working office hours then later working shift.. no chance of going out in the weekends... Right??

Kk.. got to go sleep now.. Working early tomorrow.. hehe..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-11-20T18:38:00.000+08:00

Selamat hari raya haji,

Urgh!! feeling so tired right now.. I guess because of the flu that i'm having now.. Damn it!!

Sorry for not updating last weeks trip to the Museum with dearest bf.. Have been going out for the past few days and due to 1st week of working, I have neglected my blog.. hehe

Anyway, me and my bf went over to the museum last saturday.. eh or was it sunday?? oppss... can't remember.. hehe..

Anywayz... my bf wanted to go there... even though i was angry at him because he woke up late.. haha..

Oh yar so it took us about 3 hours plus to finish touring all the gallery.. WAH!! Super long!!

There were so many things to look at but so little time.

Anywayz, it's a good place to go when escaping from going shopping with my bf's mother.. hehe..

Oh yar by the way.. SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI!!!

This year hari raya haji was a bit different because my brother-in-law, came to celebrate hari raya haji with us. But there was a lot of commotions about his dress.. sooo.. i should not go on anymore about it.. hehe...

Anyway i had a hard time today at work because i was feeling so uncomfortable with the bad flu.. It's irritating!! Aiyo.. kk.. i think i should go shower now.. It's gonna be night soon. Hopefully tomorrow my flu will reduce.. Going out tomorrow to meet up with dearest brother suk and my bf to watch Harry Potter 3D... hehe.. Will pop in 2 more panadols later at night after i have my shower.. having fever... aiyo.. irritating..

kk...

Oh yar.. Happy Birthday Sera!!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-11-11T16:08:00.000+08:00

Got a job,

Aww.. so cute.. found this teddy bear at the corner of the chair of aunty jo's house.

Last week i just announced that i had officially finish my nursing course. With a lot of perseverance and a lot of interviews made and done this week, I finally got a job. It's at Orchard.. hehe.. I'm gonna start working as a clinic assistance next monday. It's pay is not that bad but it's ok. It's just temporary. Because i'm still waiting to go for the SGH interview.. Hehehe.. Can't wait...

I'm so eager to start but i'm not sure if my preparations is sufficient to allow me to work as a staff nurse.

The thought of starting work is fun but it's also scary. No more backups, no more help.. It's basically me, myself and I.. hahaha.. So i really have to work hard no matter what.

Thanks to the doctor that i was interviewed by.. I finally found a job which mummy isn't satisfied with. With a knowledge of chinese language, it kind of help me somehow in job hunting. Hmm.. k I think i totally need to brush up my chinese as of today... I'm so elicited. Thank you god!!

Talk about starting work.. i need to wear home clothes.. OMG!! I totally forgot about that.. KK.. i should go arrange what clothes to wear to work from now on.. Oh.. talking about arranging clothes... It reminded me of the time i was in poly.. Every single week i have to plan on what to wear.. hahaha.. kk.. Hope my dearest bf is ok with me working at orchard. Hmm...

Anyway after the interview, went over to aunty jo's house as promised. We then went to eat at arnolds. I ate the banana split.. So delicious!! hehe...

I'm now back home surfing the net.. And hopefully my dearest brother suk will be free later to meet up. Hiazz.. to get an appointment with him is so super difficult nowadays.. Clerk Kent so super busy.. saving himself and the world.. hahaha..

Kk... now feeling tired already.. woke up way early this morning just because of wanting to be early for the interview..

Signing off first.. want to relax first before i tell my dearest bf the happy news.. Oh by the way, we applied for the house at sengkang.. Hopefully we will be able to get it . I pray that we will be able to get it because that's the nearest to the east side.. Oh god, please let us have a house in that area.. Its a plus 4 years more of waiting. So let us get the house please, please...

I'm just so happy.. turning 21 years old, it really starts off pretty well for me.. Thank you!!

K signing off..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-11-08T15:12:00.000+08:00

Holidays are not that sweet,

Last week i've just ended my student life in Nanyang Polytechnic. Thought of celebrating with my dearest boyfriend but his kinda of sick. Almost 2 weeks his sick already and he went to about 3 different doctors. Hopefully the last one works, if not straight to A&E, is where i will be sending him.. hehehe..

Last saturday, went to jemputan with my dearest bf to attend his cousins wedding. I have to say, i don't really like the wedding layout and neither is the food nice. I can't comment that much because i won't know how dearest elder sis fana's wedding would be like. But for sure if it's gonna be the same, it's gonna be an embarrassment. Hiazz... Having a brother-in-law whose childish.. is already embarrassing.. Hiazz.. hopefully i won't be like that.. haha..

Oh well...

Currently surveying for a house.. so still not sure which to choose.. still on a process.. Hopefully i get a good house..

It's so difficult when you want to get married.. so many things to think about.. so many decision to make.. hmmm..

kk got to go..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-11-05T21:24:00.000+08:00

End of student life,

Told you right, last saturday, sunday, i celebrated my birthday.. well sorry for not uploading the pictures... I've finally got time to upload it today.. hehe..

Oh yea finally!!!

I finished my PRCP.. Oh my... Finally!! I passed.. Thank you CI Norhayati!! It was tremendously great.. We even had a lot of fun by celebrating after shifts ends.. It was totally fun... Thanks guyz!! All of you had made my PRCP period fun and exciting!! It has been a long time since i had fun during attachment.. Sorry if i had bullied some of you.. hehehe.. Anyway thanks for the help... Next stop... Skin Center!! Yeah.. Can't wait to officially become a nurse there!! hehe

Tomorrow going out with dearest bf to his cousin's weddings.. Hmm..

Oh yar, Happy Deepavali guyz!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-11-01T20:20:00.001+08:00

Last week of attachment,

Finally, the week of PRCP is about to end..

Oppss... sorry about not filling in the details.. hahaha.. last week have been the most fun experience i had with the staff nurses there. Even though there were a lot of problems but it was fun. Hopefully everything will be fine till this friday. Will take extra, extra, extra, extra precaution.

Aiyo anyways my legs feels like giving way today..

oh yar.. celebrated my birthday on saturday and sunday.. hehe.. Thanks for coming dearest sis atika!! hehe..

Oh my uncles and aunties were there too.. so was my precious boyfriend.. haha.. dearest brother suk wasn't present but he wished me happy birthday... Thanks aunty ack and aunty jo for taking time and spending time with me... Thanks daddy for the chalet.. hehe...

Hiazz.. kk.. i'm down with flu.. tired.. i'm gonna rest.. tomorrow is the last day i'm working afternoon.. Subsequently it's morning shift for me.. Yeah..

Fighting!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-10-16T13:07:00.001+08:00

3rd week of attachment,

It's finally the end of my 3rd week of attachment. And i have to say it has been tough. For the first time ever, in a week i took up 1 whole cubicle case. Never ever in the previous PRCP posting i get to take 6 cases in 1 1/2 week. It's amazing. However i think i still need to improve more. There is a lot of thing that i need to improve on. It gets complicated every time. But the good thing about the ward is the spotting doctors, PT, OT and nurses there... They are really friendly. I totally love that ward. Mrs. Fadhilah keeps on the look out for me every time and she says i'm enjoying my self and she's happy that i have improved a lot. I'm so happy.

Oh and yes finally i saw Lecturer Norain.. Ah.. miss her so much.. She finally came back from her holiday. I hope she finally had her surgery. She has a final stage cancer. I hope she's alright. Lecturer Norain... Please get a lot of rest, you totally need it...

Oh anyway, i finally got to woke up late today morning, but just to find everyone disappeared. Dearest eldest sis, decided to take a break and set off for indonesia with her fiance and her friends for their holiday. Dearest little sis, fiyah, went to madrasah since this morning, while mummy and daddy out.. Hmm.. not sure where they go. As they get older, both my parents are getting more intimate.. It's cute in a way but it's irritating in another. They keep on going dates and what not. Hiazz... just because they have no little children anymore, they tend to go out more. Hiazz.. then what about this house?? whose going to take care of it?? Well like they say, the house save electricity whenever there is no one around.. Hahaha...

Oh i hope dearest sis atika is alright... Hmm... don't worry women, you deserve a better guy who totally understands you with what your doing. Forget about him.. and enjoy yourself.. hehe.. if he's not there for you means his not worth it for you.. k...

Hmm.. next year so many events. I'll be getting engaged beginning of next year. I'll be starting to work as a nurse next year and dearest eldest sis is getting married next year.. Hmm and who knows at the end of next year she might announce that she's pregnant.. hehehe.. wow.. looking forward for next year.. and next year dearest little sis will be in secondary 3 and guess what by the end of next year the room will be only occupied by 2 people.. So no fighting of space.. hahaha...and my boyfriend will officially turn 30 years old next year.. hehehe.. yeah.. so many things next year.. Looking forward.. Yeah.. can't wait..

Oh i hope dearest brother suk has settled his problems that has been affecting him. Hmm.. sorry i can't help you much this time because it's your personal thing. I don't want to interfere but can only give advise and opinions... Hmm.. hopefully he can make it through also to the final round of the competition. hmm.. be positive k...

Tomorrow going out with my boyfriend and my boyfriend's mum.. Hmm.. hopefully we will get whatever we will be looking for..

Hmm.. Hopefully next week will be a great week.. Looking forward!! Fighting!!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-10-10T12:41:00.000+08:00

2nd week of attachment,

It's the 2nd week of attachment and i have to say, I really love it there. Even though everything is in a rush in ward 36 but finally i get to finish writing all my reports before going for break. For the first time ever i get to take around 2 cases and subsequently more, and i get to finish it way earlier. So happy.. hehe.. Thanks CI Norhayati..I will try to do extremely better next week. Hopefully i will improve more next week..

Oh yesterday, went out with dearest bf. We went out to iKea because he wanted to get a shelving and mattress for his brother.. Hmm.. so we went over tilll around 8plus.. In the end we were too tired, we decided to go PS and bugis another day. Other then him being indecisive on which shelving he should get, the queue there was super long so we took a long time there.. Hahaha..

Won't be able to go out today because my dearest bf and his mum is coming over. Another meeting.. and this time round it's with the parents.. Hopefully everything will go smoothly..

Oh anyway just want to let the women out there know.. Never ever, ever leave a guy just because someone else says you and him don't fit with each other.. Seriously.. it will make the women community look bad... In the first place if you don't like the guy then say straight forwardly. Doing that is the same as saying "I'm dating you jokingly".. It's also like saying "I can leave you as and when i pleases"... It's an utter rubbish attitude seriously.. Imagine if you were a guy and a girl do that on you.. Won't you feel angry? It some how shows that you are not able to be by his side if anything goes bad. Hiazz...

Darling, don't worry i won't do that to you....

K go to go prepare..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-10-02T14:29:00.000+08:00

Starting of attachment,

Last Sunday, i went over to my boyfriend's house to help out with the kenduri. It was fun. Even though he had to go back to camp on that very evening.

He was so busy in camp when i started my first week of attachment at ward 36. After a long time in medical ward, i finally went over to a surgical ward. I got used to it after just 3 days there. I have to say, i totally really miss the environment there. There were a few new staff nurses. Most of the old ones are not around. Hmm.. for example staff nurses shannon is a nursing coordinator, some quit while some transferred to other wards or ICU. Hmm.. I have to say i really missed the ward. Hahaha..

Got into a fight with my boyfriend for the first time. It was really frustrating for me. For the first time i felt that he treated me as if like i'm not important to him. Urgh.. it was so frustrating to have that kind of feeling. To show my protest, i ignored his messages and his calls. I was still angry at first but subsequently it was fun. Oppss.. sorry... As I'm me, I eventually gave in after we laid down the problem. Hopefully it won't happen again.

Hmm.. anywayz, i think dearest brother suk is in deep shit. Seriously what was he thinking?? Making 2 women liking him at once?? Wah.. he really digging his own grave.. hahaha.. No matter what he has to let go of one of them when he wants to get into a serious relationship. Hopefully it will be soon...

Oh dearest sis atika.. please get enough rest.. don't over work yourself with assignments k...

Will be taking case next week.. So will be busy.. hehe.. Will update again on saturday or sunday next week.. Why?? Cause it's my off days... hehe

Okie lah, take care pips!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-09-21T00:03:00.000+08:00

Big issue,

Hari raya has officially ended as for me last week on sunday. On friday, went out with my boyfriend after he finished his work. We head out to bugis and hang out and did all sorts of stuff. It was the best day after so long not meeting him... K lah.. Not that long arh..

Anywayz, saturday, Abang Mohaideen and his family came over. Cik and aunty jo also came over. Dearest sis fana who was planning to cook for the first time eventually didn't do it. So hahaha.. everyone is safe.. hehe..

My boyfriend came over too that day but it was serious business. It got so complicated till my boyfriend told his mother a different thing. I had to explained to his mother in the end. I was getting kind of worried with my boyfriend. So the next visit, my boyfriend's mother will come down together instead. It's to sort out about the merisik thing and the engagement month. So fast huh??

Most importantly i have to finish school fast at least should be by end of this year.. When i mean fast, i mean pronto.. hahaha..

I hope my boyfriend's mother won't get to worried anymore after he comes and settle all this with my parents. I hope she will be ok. Because with the lost of her husband.. which happened just only, i hope she is physically and mentally ok. I'm so worried for her.

You know what it's like to lose your partner right?? Yar, so.. i have to be understanding too..

Hmm...

I'm turning 21 soon this year, but there has been so many things that has happened. So many till i'm not sure if i'm on the right track or not. This maturity thing is driving me nuts.. Aiyo..

Kk.. got to go to sleep already.. Having my attachment in school for this whole week while my boyfriend goes for his 2 weeks reservist. I hope his doing fine.

Hmm.. k guyz, please don't fall sick...

P.S: Congratulations to abang mohaideen sister.. She's pregnant with a baby girl!!! Ahh.. congrats.. can't wait to see the baby come out.. hahaha

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-09-14T14:38:00.001+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya,

It's hari raya week. Finally.. Fasting month is over. During the fasting month, so much has happened. So many things turned out the way i didn't wanted it too. Hmm.. There were too many preparations towards the end of the fasting month. Firstly the tahlil turned out well even though there weren't many uncles and aunties attended it. Hmm.. That's because so much has happened over daddy's side of the family till i'm not really sure what is happening.

Secondly, the house has finally been cleaned up and aunty jo has finally cooled down. However there are still issues that basically need to be addressed. Hopefully she and aunty ack will cool down with each other soon. Hmm.. uncle yes??? So long have not heard from him..

Anywayz... the 1st day of hari raya, we went over to bapak yayi house, and mummy's side.. and of course this year we went over to mak yam's house.

On the 2nd day of hari raya, we went over to kak fana's fiancee house and also all the nenek's (daddy's aunties) house.. We even went to wak maliah's house.. That day kakak ditched us half way.. hiazz..

On the 3rd day of hari raya, kak fana, didn't join us because she was too tired after coming back from her ambush at punggol in the wee hours of the morning. We went over to the aunties and uncles from daddy's side.

Anywayz, even though there were little houses this year, it was fun. For my boyfriend, I hope he is doing fine. This year is the 1st year he is celebrating without his father around. I hope in the year's to come it will be even better for him.

Arh.. Kkk.. i've got to go.. Mummy is making too much noise already. Daddy will be home for a few days because his sick, so he won't be working. Please take good care of yourself people. Don't get so sick k..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-09-03T16:37:00.000+08:00

Rest In Peace,

It has been a bad week for the past few days. After my boyfriend's father was in the hospital again for about 2 days, he finally gave out his last breath on the night of his 3rd day stay at CGH MICU. His condition was pretty bad when i came over to visit. Pak cik was already unconscious and his blood pressure was low. He had to depend on the mechanical ventilator to support his breathing. His organs weren't functioning well. It was difficult for my boyfriend and his family members to accept it. We prayed for Pakcik to get better but in the end at night after i got back from the hospital he was pronounced dead.

Then i went over to his house yesterday after sahur. Everyone bid their last goodbye. I helped out a little for the tahlil which was at around 6pm. And went back home late. I'm so sorry for not being able to do that much darling. I hope makcik takes it well in the days to come. To all the friends who send their condolences, I thank you very much. It was a busy day. Will be going over again tomorrow for the next tahlil.

In the meantime i need to save my energy for tomorrow. Will work hard. Oh, i should go and prepare my clothes. I'm suppose to go out and order the pastry for tomorrow's kenduri.

KK.. got to go and bath already and go out. Mummy is gonna kill me if i don't be back on time for buka later.

Take care guyz... Don't fall sick k..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-08-24T13:28:00.001+08:00

2 more weeks of fasting month,

Arh.. finally got my new sewn hari raya clothes. It has arrived. Apparently it turned out badly.. The first thing after i looked at it and tried it on was "MUMMY!!!!".. Wah it turned out in a way that i really dislike. I thought of using the clothes when i go over to my boyfriend house for hari raya.. But looking at it, there is no way i will do that.. Urgh.. so frustrating. Luckily i still have my old clothes.. Thank God!!!

Oh 2 1/2 more weeks to Hari Raya Puasa!!! Yeah! ^_^

With only 2 weeks left, I have little time to finish up making all the kuih. This year the hardest kuih to make was the kuih tart.

Got the recipe from cik ak but she wasn't sure. In the end i had to figure out myself. It took until the next morning to finish. Haha.. It's so tiring. Mummy helped out but yeah it was just the first batch try out. The next one will be tomorrow. Too sleepy to continue today besides i want to go out and meet my boyfriend after buka today.. Yes, finally.. Arh.. Miss him a lot!!

Haha.. So kuih making will resume again tomorrow. Hehe..

Kk.. tired of blogging.. still waiting for school to call me regarding my attachment. Sian.. Let the attachment start the week after hari raya.. please!!! Hopefully in ends faster too!!

Kk people please take care of you're self.. Stay healthy k!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-08-16T16:49:00.001+08:00

Fasting month,

Last week was the start of fasting month.. oh and also not forgetting the ghost month... Hmm..

Anyway before fasting month started, i met up with my boyfriend for the last time. Since it's fasting month, the chances of meeting him is none. Due to the need of abstinence from all bad things, we won't be meeting each other until the end of the fasting period. Hahaha.. call me old fashion.. but hey, rules is rules.. I wouldn't want to lose my fasting points. Hahaha.. So we met up and eat dinner and went to our usual spot.. Pasir Ris Fishing pond.. hahaha..

Oh yar, so it's the 2nd week of fasting month and my boyfriend is sick. He sure has to fall sick at the wrong timing. Haha.. Just kidding.. Really pity him, with night shifts these few days for him, he apparently came down with a bad flu. Hope he recovers soon.

I have to say the start of the fasting month this year isn't that good. Apart from my boyfriend and daddy falling sick, dearest sis fana's father-in-law got into RTA. Not so severe lah. Just minor injuries. Some broken clavicle bones and scratches. Oh also not forgetting my uncle (my aunty's husband) who is in hospital right now. He apparently got warded in CGH and they are doing some tests to confirm.. I hope everyone who is sick will recover faster.. Please recover!!

Oh between.. did you guys watch the YOG opening ceremony??? Wahhh really love the ceremony. I prefer it better than the NDP ceremony. Hahaha..

Kkk got to go help out with preparing buka already.. Happy Fasting guyz!!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-08-08T16:19:00.000+08:00

Happy National Day,

PRCP in ward 29 has finally ended and it has been confirmed that i won't be going back there for my next PRCP that will start again on September. The next PRCP will be just 2 months for me. Hiazz... Another few months of torture... I just hope that it will be better this time round. I don't want to waste time there anymore. Tired of wearing the student nurse uniform already. Sick and tired of it already.

Anyway, yesterday went out with Reduan. It's the first time i saw him angry in public. He was basically angry with this kid whose like a mat (I think the kid is in secondary school). Apparently the kid hit his head with a bottle cover in the movie theater. He kept his anger in him till the very end of the movie. He walked out so fast as if he was chasing after the kid to get an apology. Wah.. never seen him getting so mad before. Found the kid, he asked the kid to own up and it really looked like he really want to bashed the kid up as the kid didn't want to own up. Tried telling him to forget about it, but he kept on asking the kid for an apology.. In the end the kid owned up and apologize. I pulled him away from the kid and told him to cool down but it took him a long time to cool down. Hiazz.. i guess it's true what dearest sis atika say.. Men and their ego and pride..

Well you know how much i hate making a scene in public right?? well apparently that's a first for me and I hope it won't happen again. I know how much he hates showing that side of him to me but i finally got to see it and i have to say it totally scare me. He apologized and i forgave him. Even so.. i hope it won't happen again. I know i have to understand him and how he feels. I do understand.. I really do.. but it's just that it's best not to get too angry. It's no good for the health. Hmm..

.. So after that we were suppose to catch dearest bro suk band play. It's for the the band competition at Tampines Mall yesterday. Hmm.. however, he performed before we reached there so wasn't able to catch his band play. Felt so bad... Hmm.. never mind the next time i'll come down and give support on time.. hahaha..

Oh tomorrow is national day.. Hmm.. i guess will be watching it broadcast live in TV. haha.. Not forgetting fasting month will start the next day of singapore's national day. Hmm.. it seems that this year will be having so many events. I have to say my life this year is a big turn over. Hahaha.. Well i guess that's because its the year i'm turning into an adult. hahaha.. oh well...

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-08-05T21:51:00.000+08:00

Failure,

Hiazz.. another week of pain..

Failed my PRCP and i have to repeat it another about 1 1/2 more months. Sian. All the improvements that she wanted to see was like wasted. All went down the drain. All she gave was excuses.. It's so frustrating. Hiazz.. I was so frustrated and angry that caused me to cry when i sat down with all my nyp lecturers. They counseled me and tried to loosen the awkward moment. It was pretty stressful for me. All the things that she said about improved a lot was just an utter rubbish as i looked at it now.

Hmm.. but what ever it is i still have to accept the fact and do better the next time round.

Thanks mummy, basirah, shi hui, faezah, dearest brother suk and Reduan for giving me courage and support. You guys have been a great listener. I promise that i'll take it positively and move forward. There's no turning back. I'm so glad that i have great friends, family and my loving boyfriend. I'm gonna be strong from now onwards. That way i won't disappoint everyone again.

K feeling so tired already. Going to sleep after this. Tomorrow going back to nyp to sit for some lecture about how to apply things. It really has been a long time since i went back school. After tomorrow it's holiday first then PRCP starts again for me.

Anyway Puasa is starting soon. Happy fasting people!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-08-04T11:16:00.000+08:00

Kak noi's engagement,

After much stress at work finally saturday went out with Reduan to distress. Reduan has been working night shifts for the past few days so i wanted to spent the whole day of saturday with him. So i took saturday off. I was suppose to work that day but i exchanged my weekday off with saturday working schedule. So it was off day for me. Anyway we went out and spend time at West Mall, Chinatown and Hougang. Being able to spend the whole day with him was the best day ever. Thanks for the fun time darling. Love you!! Hehe..

The next day i had to wake up way early to attend kak noi's engagement ceremony.

Being too tired from the day before, it was a bit difficult for me to wake up. Hahaha.. anyway i had to force myself to wake up and iron my clothes for the event. Reaching there, everyone seems so chaos.. Hahaha.. it reminds me of the time i was settling kak fana's engagement ceremony with no parents around. I remembered i didn't get enough sleep at all.. Thought of helping out in the kitchen, but seeing that there were so many people in the kitchen, i went to the back room and set down with my other cuzziess...

Kak noi did looked pretty for her most important occassion. Oh yar by the way the theme was purple.. Hahaha... Whoever came up with that theme colour must be a bit colour blind i think.. Hahaha.. Sorry, sorry...

Oh by the way its the first time i attended an engagement ceremony with so many exchange gifts from the groom side. The groom side gave about 14 trays and almost all are food.

I was like waaahhh....As you can see.. there was like not much room for people as the groom side bought along 30 members of his family.. Hiazz... Anyway everyone was so excited about putting on the ring on the bride's finger till all the unwanted people went in at one go causing a jam at the entrance. It caused the mother of the groom to get stuck in the entrance of the room. So inconsiderate right all this people... Hiazz....

Anyway, the ceremony ended well only that there were a lot of cleaning. By the end of the day i was already sleepy and tired. Hahaha...

Oh yar by the way, i'm still kind off pissed with daddy for opening his mouth.. walao.. must he tell everyone about me going to get engaged end of this year?? Seriously it's not even confirm yet. I was so surprised when everyone kept saying that the next person to get engaged is me. How did everyone know?? I asked cuzziess and they all said daddy said so.. Wah piang... seriously not confirmed yet.. daddy hasn't met reduan but soon, on the 2nd week of hari raya. And if everything goes well, we will proceed with the engagement this december as requested by both side parents. Hahaha..

Hmm.. k lah let's not think about that yet.. I'm left with tomorrow for attachment. Hope i pass.. Please, please.. let me pass this attachment!!!

Hmm.. k lah got to go prepare for work.. Today on afternoon shift.

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-07-25T17:05:00.000+08:00

Ending soon,

It has been a long time since i updated my blog. Hiazz... have been very busy lately. Last weekend, had a date with Reduan at Singapore Zoological. haha.. It was kinda fun.

We walked from one end to another end of the zoo. By the time we exited the zoo, we were tired. Hahaha.. Hmm however we did spent a quality time the whole day. Other then going to the zoo, we went to expo hall. It was damn chaos there. Then we ended up spending our time at pasir ris fishing pond.

The next day, the whole family excluding kak fana went out with aunty jo and aunty ak to celebrate auntya ak's promotion. Finally.. she got promoted after a long time working in the police. Congrats cik ak.. ekk.. so happy for her. We went to eat at Uncle Toby's restaurant. It was not that bad.

Oh yar before meeting aunty jo and aunty ak, we went to booked a wedding package for kak fana at expo. And yes it has already been set. Kak fana is getting married next year but the date is not confirmed yet. Hmm.. so happy for her.. By the time she's getting married, she will be having a 5 room house already. Really envy her.. hmm.. but the good thing is that i will be having my own room next year.. Wooho.. so happy.. hehehe..

Oh Yesterday, went out with Reduan to catch sorcerer apprentice. It was funny and i really loved the movie. Thanks for the movie darling even though you were sleeping most of the time during the movie.. hehehe.. I really felt bad for having a date yesterday because he was too tired and he met up with me after work. So we went home early because he had to work this morning. Knowing that he's tired, i decided not call him once i reached home. Anyway, i really enjoyed the short time we spent together..

..Hmm i hoped he had gotten enough sleep before he went to work this morning.

hmm.. anyway, this week was the most hectic week at work. With so many discharges, transfer in and patient found collapsed, it was a bit difficult to finish writing my report on time. And with every staff calling "eh student, student!! help me do this..." "Eh student, student.. help me send this..", i ended up going back late a few times and missing my breaks. I'm totally fine with helping out but calling me for something you can actually do it, is a bit too much don't you think so. And when every time i'm about to start writing report, the student disease will start again. Wah...

Hmm.. never mind.. It's going to be 1 1/2 more weeks and i really have to pass it no matter what. This means i have to work extremely hard next week. Yeah.. Fighting!!

Take Care aitz,

ciao

2010-07-11T17:12:00.001+08:00

Unlucky,

Last week me and reduan catched eclipse. It wasn't that bad. but i think they should have just fast forwarded it and play the last book instead. It's so frustrating to watch bella being indecisive. Hahaha... Reduan on the other hand had problems after watching the show. He had headache from watching the show. Sorry Darling!! Next time when we watch movie, we watch it at the back sit k.

It sure has been a very unlucky week for me at work. With so many deaths on every of my shift, it totally freaks me out. Hmm.. not only that.. i think i really have bad aura. 3 of my patients whom i took as my case all died either after i feed them or when i'm feeding them. The worst was when one of them had to be activated code blue. Wah that one was so super chaos. I was just about to pass report my case when suddenly to of the nurses ,"faster, faster... push, push... EXCUSE ME, OUT OF THE WAY!!" Then everyone panicked. "Why arh??".. "Molly, Molly!".. Then every all gather at the cubicle. Hahaha.. With so many doctors rushing it was so scary. The doctor "Quick give me adrenaline... Hmm... Faster Gelafundin.... Quick dispatch blood... Hmm.. good, good.. some more compression..".. In between ourselves we were like "quick suction... take over.. quick take oxylog... alcohol swab.. quick kidney dish.. faster 2nd adrenaline.. doctor quick plug.. back flow, back flow" Wow.. total chaos. Visitors who were still there were all watching in mesmerizing. We were all practically running. How many call bells there were outside the cubicle also we didn't even bother to answer. We were able to revive her but i heard that after i got home, she vomited blood and died. I hope aunty molly rest in peace. Hiazz..

Now i know what a code blue looks like.. hmmm....

Anyway yesterday i went out with reduan. We went to eat and then we went to pasir ris fishing pond. Hahaha... Arh.. i even bumped into dearest brother henry and his girlfriend kat. It's been a long lime since i saw both of them. Glad that they are still together.. hahaha.. so sweet.

Hmm.. today meeting up with dearest sis atika and dearest bro suk.. It's been a long time since i met them. They are always busy. But finally they are making time for me... K don't want to be late..Gtg.. If i'm late later, i will get slaughtered by both of them. Got to go get changed..

Oh to Kak Noi.. Congratulations on the engagement today!! Hmm.. i hope it will last till the day you guys sit on the pelamin.. aiyo k till forever.. hahaha.... By the way, the BTO at tampines is already open.. haha...

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-07-02T13:20:00.003+08:00

Will tomorrow be ok for me?,

Went to watch Knight and Day last sunday with Reduan. It was a great show. But i still think that Karate Kid was much better. Hmm whatever it is i really enjoyed the show. Spending time with Reduan was great and it's the first time i went out on a date with a guy who gave me flowers. Hahaha.. It's cute. Love the flowers. Thanks darling..

Hmm not sure how this week will end. Out of so many days i had to fall sick after my day off. Seriously my gastritis and stomach flu just had to come yesterday. Vomited a lot after getting up trying to prepare to go to work. Visited the doctor and he gave me a 2 days mc. Great! (I guess it's my punishment for not attending the BBQ on Wednesday last minute). In the next few weeks i will only have 1 day off every week. With the upcoming skills and health education presentation coming up next week onwards, it is really not helping. Hiazz.. If only i took care of myself very well after falling sick the other time. It's already the 2nd time i'm falling sick during attachment. What more, it's on my PRCP attachment that all of this is happening. It's so frustrating but i have no choice. I really felt so bad because i didn't attend work on the day shi hui and me were put on the same shift. It has been a long time since we were put on the same shift and i was excited the day before. Unfortunately because i was sick, i couldn't attend work. shishh!! so much for being excited.

I heard that shi hui had a bad day with monster that day (Sorry Shi Hui.. I wasn't there to help you). I really felt bad. Hiazz.. if only i wasn't sick that day.

Will be going back to work again tomorrow. Hmm.. with Shi Hui off tomorrow, i think monster will be on tomorrow morning. Shit, I'm totally dead. I pray that tomorrow time will fly faster and work will be smooth. However with monster a round, i doubt it won't be like that.

Finally, watching I give my first Love To You. I have to say, i really love this japanese movie. With good actor like okada masaki and actress like Inoue Mao who played in Boys Over Flowers, the movie is really touching. Almost cried watching it over youtube. Hahaha..

Anyway, i hope that i will be able to catch eclipse tomorrow with Reduan after work. His taking half day from work tomorrow, so will spent more time with him. I hope it's alright to spent time with him when his dad is still in the hospital recovering. Hmm...

take care aitz,
ciao

2010-06-26T17:48:00.000+08:00

Fulfilling week,

It has been a long time since i updated my blog. Being busy has it's pros and cons. But i have to say, being busy has made me miss on a lot of things. However, i still need to pass my nursing course so i'm really working hard and trying to revise a lot. I want to make sure she eats her words. Damn, it has been so frustrating at work. It's always me who can't get it right. Hiazz..

Hmm.. however i liked this week. That's because even when she gave me a shit shifts i still got a saturday and sunday off. Not only that, i have already started taking cases. I like all my patients.. They are really cute and nice even when all of them are on suicidal precaution. Hahaha.. And for this week i get to assist in resuscitation a lot of times. Interesting.

Another reason is because monster has been busy with her own assessments. This means she is rarely around in the ward at the ends of this week. hehehe.. However, dooms day starts next week so i the joyous occasion is only for this week.

Went over to abang mohaideen's house this week to see the new baby. Arh.. the baby is really so cute!!! Hmmm.. i'm wondering when is dearest sis fana turn?? Why so slow apply house?? aiyo...

Hmm but before that me and dearest sis fana went to catch Karate Kid. I have to say, it's the best show that i have ever watched. This is the only movie that made me cry. It really is funny as well as touching. I totally give it a 5 thumbs up (eh wait i only have 2 thumbs right...). Everyone should really watch it. Totally love it.

Going to watch movie again later. Hmm.. hope today's meeting will be ok. It's the first time i'm meeting the guy.. so yeah.. i hope it goes well.. because i'm not good at conversations when i don't really know the person well.. I have to say my communication still sucks.

Tomorrow will be going out to meet dearest brother suk to go donate blood. Have the urge to do something useful. So i finally decided to donate my blood.

oh to shima!! Happy Birthday!! You have finally turned 21 years old. Stay healthy and enjoy your birthday...

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-06-20T15:32:00.002+08:00

Difficult week,

It has been a tough week and i have to say i really hate this week. With me falling sick and not concentrating, it really makes me feel so frustrated. Hiazz. Because of the problems at work, i have to be on counseling session. I really felt like giving up after what has happened. The CI keep saying she fail me but what the heck... It's so frustrating listening to her saying this. It really adds up to my frustration. And with the lack of sleep the whole week, i have to say my body is really in a bad condition.

Having to get up early morning is so dreadful. Well what to do this is working life. My body is still adjusting to the working condition. However it seems pretty bad.

K enough of all that.. I hope i will be able to make it. I really need to pull myself together and get this over and done with.

Anyway to dearest brother suk, dearest sis fana, bas and shu hui.. thanks for the encouragement.. I really will work hard and get enough rest.. and of course recover faster.. HWAITING!!!

take care aitz,

ciao

2010-06-06T00:54:00.001+08:00

Tough week,

This week started off great. Actually way better, because i was on morning shift. However as the days goes by, there is a lot of pressure around. With Sister of the ward scolding and nagging, and CI not being able to accept some school skills method, Shi Hui and me are worried. Especially me. And with the little evaluation most of the time she give, I'm even more worried. How do i improve myself when i don't get any feedback? I'm totally worried. But no matter what i still need to strive hard.

Everything went well this whole week and i hope it will be better next week.. hehehe..

Fana and me had the same off day this week and we spent ample time together. It's been a long time since i spent time with my dearest elder sis whose busy with work and busy finding her own house... and of course with her fiance. She seems tired. Every time she comes home she ends up sleeping first. With her back to back working hours and 12 hours shift work, she sure is exhausted. So not much time to spent with her. Even her off day doesn't seem like an off day. Her off days are most of the time spent back at her station or at the gym with her gym trainer, working out. With a fiance who is from the CNB, she sure needs to keep her self in shape.

Oh I heard her future sister in law has just safely given birth to a baby girl.. Congratulations!!

Can't wait to see the cute baby when she comes over to this house.. hehehe

Oh and happy birthday to abu, fateha, and thiviya.. Happy birthday guyz!!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-05-30T18:49:00.000+08:00

2nd week of PRCP,

The second week of PRCP has ended and boy did it ended with lots of ups and downs. I have to say, It's getting crazier and tougher each day. Trying to perfect junior work is super tough. I have to say, without patience i guess i won't be able to survive the day to day ordeal. The encouragement i get from friends is a drug for me to carry on with work. I believe it's not for me to give up now and i have to strive till the last day. It's a one time chance and i guess i have to make it right and work hard since it's already nearing to my end stage of being a student. hahaha.. What worries me the most is the process and the after part. I'm still not sure what i'm going to focus on. Counselor? Nurse? or other area. Hmm.. whatever it is i have to make a decision fast. And guess what, mummy and daddy is not helping and making it difficult by objecting every single decision i make.

Yeah!! Finally.. I have my psychology and counseling cert. I'm so happy. Hmm.. i hope i will be able to take on more courses. But in the meantime, i want to focus on doing very well in my PRCP.

The above picture looks weird right? ahaha.. as most of you have not know, i had cut my long hair before i started my attachment. And now looking at it i have to say i prefer my long hair. I want it to grow back faster. That way i can have a fringe. For now, having a fringe is a no, no.

However, one thing that i'm happy about is that my face has gotten way better. No more acnes to worry me. Taking care of the face is a chore. No makeup, no eating fried food and etc... Just moisturizer and having to eat hormone pills every morning before going to work. And having to go through the process every trip to the doctor is painful. But like they say, to be beautiful you have to go through pain. Well, sad to say, that it is really true. Hmm.. i hope that it will get even better.

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-05-25T19:36:00.002+08:00

She makes me feel like crying,

Day 2 of 2nd week posting.

A lot of things has been going on lately just within a short period of time. Being in the ward for almost 1 1/2 weeks makes me feel even more nervous day by day. Why? Because as you stay longer in a permanent area you tend to slowly get to know all the dirty laundries. And i have to say, the dirty laundries that has been shown for the past few days makes me want to say sayonnara immediately. One of the reason would be the nursing manager. Wah, she's a bit too much don't you think? I really pity the new staff nurses there. If she treats them that way then what about me and shu hui? Will we be treated that way too when we start to handle case?? The sight of her talking to the staff nurse really made me feel like crying. As for the nurse, luckily she did not end up shedding tears. She even had to forgo her MC even when she is actually sick. And i think that's not a nice way to treat a sick person.

Another reason would be the CI. The 1st time she met us, my thinking was... waa.. i'm in deep trouble. I'm so going to fail if i don't buck up a lot now. Her expectations.. super high. And guess who the CI is?? Shiqah's CI.. i'm doomed. Oh God, please let me pass my PRCP no matter what happens.

The CI seems nice but i think you really must know her well to know what she really is. Looks can be deceiving am i right? Oh well.. I have no choice but to focus on bucking up a lot, a lot, a lot. Hiazz...

Apparently the CI gives a bad aura which made me even more timid to approach her. Hiazz... why do i have this kind of behavior? I think because i don't know her too well. Hmm.. I think i have to brush out all the bad thinking aside and to stay focus on my goal. Go! Go! Go!

Other then that all that has been happening to me in the ward, i will take it as a lesson. No matter what, the seniors are always right and the juniors are always wrong. So no matter how much i got scolded for something that went wrong, i will basically suck it in. I guess that's how the working life is. Remind me again not to work at CGH once i have passed out. Hahaha..

Yeah finally, I'm done with my psychology and counseling course. Yeah!! So happy!! Can't wait for the cert. to be delivered. Hmm.. so what other course should i take after this? Hmm.. maybe a language course after PRCP? or a cooking class after PRCP?? Suggestion anybody? hahaha...

Oh to dearest cuzzie Sahida.. Happy Birthday!! Stay strong and happy always k.. Now that you're 1 year older, you have a lot of new things to adventure at that new age. Take your time and live to the fullest each day no matter how bad the day goes..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-05-22T14:14:00.002+08:00

Can't stand the weather,

It's the end of the 1st week of PRCP and i'm already sick. Headache, back pain, and guess what i'm having fever too. The contributing factor?? the weather. I have to say the hot weather is making me sweat every single day in the ward. Report not pass yet and i'm already sweating. The weather even made the whole ward damn warm. OMG!! These lead my patient's having fever persistently. Poor thing. I really felt bad but i can't help that much.

How many times i change the cold compress also doesn't work. How many medications they take also is still the same. So how many times the patient's family complaints also it is still the same. Changes?? yar.. just small changes. Change this, change that. Scans, bloods... Still the same. So who do you think is at fault here?? Hiazz..

Hmm.. after a few days in a medical ward. I have to say i'm getting used to it already. However i still miss surgical ward. Hmm no matter what, i'm determine to work hard. I hope next week will go on smoothly. Thanks for the encouragement guyz!!

To all who have graduated.. Congrats!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-05-19T23:32:00.001+08:00

It's time to activate the code blue,

It has been only the 3rd day of my PRCP an i'm starting to see dark aura circulating me. I have to say, i'm really not cut out for medical ward. I felt so useless... y? Because there is nothing much to do. I really want to be busy. Always on the ball. Always running. I don't want to be stoned every single day. Walking around aimlessly to find something to do. Asking every single nurse that i'm working with if there is anything for me to do. I want to help. Not bland in with the surroundings, not bland in with the wall. Just give me something to do and i will really do it. It's ok if you want to scold me or want to lash out at me at least i learn something before i start practicing as an acting staff nurse, doing staff nurse jobs. Please, please.. where are all those dressings?? suctioning, cath. insertion, in and out urinary cath? urosheath insertion? ECG monitoring? administering medications? ... etc.. I really miss all those.

Hiazz.. but no matter what, i really have to do well at junior job even when there isn't much thing to do. Most importantly i still have more things to improve on like how to order bloods and my knowledge on the diseases. Still not good enough. I'll try my very best.

Oh and to the rest of you pips all the best for the PRCP posting.

Oh and thanks for the encouragement guys..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-05-17T19:22:00.000+08:00

1st Day of PRCP,

Urgh.. I have to say the first day of PRCP is making me feel like quitting immediately. I really need a lot of patience i guess, to nurse patients as well as to be able to work well with the year 2 ITE students. Urgh! out of all wards why must it be my ward with a lot of minah's?? Can't stand their 'i'm better than you' behavior. It's just the 1st day and most of them don't seem to get a long with me and my friend. What the?? Seriously if you don't want to do the job then just say lah. You don't have to really go around and show that fucked up face and then tell everybody about it. Seriously..

Hiazz.. what damn luck. I have to say i need more than patience to survive so please help me. I hope i will be able to survive till the end. Fighting!

Morning shift tomorrow. I hope it will go smoothly. I think i should change my working strategy starting tomorrow. Then maybe that way i will be able to survive till the end. Yeah!

Ok i'm having a bad headache now. I better go settle my stuff first. Turning in early today. Good night!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-05-15T23:38:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Nazwa,

It's the little girl's birthday today and we all celebrated it over uncle yes house. Hahaha..

The little devil has turned 2 years old. hahaha..

When over to uncle yes house after my counseling class to help out with some preparations. It has been a long time since i went over his house. So when i went over, i was so shocked to see this little devil messing up the whole house. Hiazz.. Kids will be kids. The reason why i call her little devil is because she is super active.

Because of this little devil, I'm feeling very exhausted when i reach home. Taking care of her is sure tiring. She sure is the queen of the house. Everything has to be like how she wants it. If you're watching a show that she doesn't like then she will off the tv without asking. Arh.. this naughty little girl. She is so lucky not to have me as an elder sister or she will have a hard time.. If you wipe the dirty table she will start to cry.. you want to know why?? Because when she dirties the table it means she wants it dirty and she doesn't want anyone to wipe her presence that she has left. Hahaha.. This little devil...

Hmm..but no matter what she is still cute. Dear cuzzie.. wishing you happy birthday!! Please learn how to talk properly soon so that i won't have to help interpret what you're trying to say to everyone. And please be more nicer to you're parents. No matter what stay happy and healthy always!!

I think I should turn in early today. Too exhausted already. Hahaha.. Good night pips..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-05-13T17:04:00.001+08:00

1 week break,

I'm still having my 1 week break, and still enjoying it. However, like i complained to bas, i really want to start attachment fast. Can't stand staying at home anymore. Why? Because it is easy to gain weight again. And after about 3 days at home i gained weight again. Lost 2kgs within a few weeks but gain 1kg back within few days. Oh my, that's very terrible. Hmm.. no matter what i have to spent my last few days properly. Hahaha..

Finally!! I have changed my blog background. Difficult. Very Difficult. Have been searching for a nice background, but apparently the blog skins nowadays are a bit out of creativity. I have to say it is really dull or either boring. After much searching, i finally decided to stick to this. Hmm.. I know it's a bit plain, but.. oh well...

Hmm.. will be celebrating Nazwa (dearest little cuzzie) birthday this saturday. Can't wait. However i still haven't get her present yet. Hmm.. what should i get?? Maybe i should go out shopping again tomorrow to get her presents. Getting presents are always the most difficult part. Hiazz... Headache, Headache!! Arh.. I almost forget, there's music bank airing tomorrow.. hmph.. Maybe i should go get it after my dermatologist appointment that way i'm able to get back early.. hehehe..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-05-10T14:11:00.001+08:00

10th May 2010,

1 week of holiday,

It has been very busy for the past few weeks. Why? Attachments, of course.. Hahaha.. It seriously has been a very fruitful weeks and having to know a lot of new pips around me. It has been really great working with all of them.. Yes of course.. including all the ITE student nurses. First time working with the year 1's, it was really something new for me and a great experience. Hahaha.. The last week of attachment at ward 36 was the most fun. I have to say the nurses there have been very patient with me. As usual i learn a lot there like the previous posting. I'm very thankful to them and to all the pips who have been helping me out through out the posting. Thanks guys!!

After this, it will be my last posting.. That would be at ward 29!! Hahaha.. PRCP!! Hmm i hope i will do well there. But currently i'm having 1 week break so i'm practically trying to open up all my old notes on medical postings. I have to say, out of all the postings that i went, i'm not a fan of medical wards. I hope i will be able to survive at that ward for my PRCP. Oh god, please protect me.

Finally, I'm almost done with my counseling course. I'm so happy. However once it ends i will not be able to continue in taking the higher diploma counseling course due to the schedules of PRCP that would be clashing with the classes. It saddens me. Hmm but it's ok. I'lll continue it once my PRCP ends. hehehe.. hmm so what course should i pursue next?? I wonder...

By the way, i hope the family feud will be over soon. I can't take it anymore and so does the other cousins of mine. Immature uncles. Blaming others on the problems that you have while not accepting it is still the same as not being responsible for your actions. Hiazz.. Everything has been utter rubbish from the beginning. Like most people say 'the blind following the blind'. Hahaha... It's not worth crying for all these people's action. Everyone around them has been affected because of them. I'm sorry to say but for an adult their actions are really childish. Things in the past shouldn't be talked again. Close it! Shut it! Then throw it in the river, so that it will flow far away from you. Seriously get a life! Hahaha.. Their actions makes it a laughing stock. Unable to realize it, they must still be in their LaLa land. What a shame. Hahaha..

To you guys out there, word of advice... Never ever look back at the past. Move on. Because in life if you don't move on and still wrecking up about the past, then you'll be lost forever in the moving hectic world. When everything is lost don't blame it on others.

.... And remember...

.. Always be happy....

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-04-27T19:15:00.000+08:00

26th April 2010,

3rd week of attachment,

It's the 3rd week of attachment and i'm really getting a hang on the workload and the clinical procedures. Hmm.. but I still have a lot more to improve on. So please teach me.. I hope I will pass this last attachment. Can't wait for PRCP to start. Hehehe.. Hmm but before that i think i need to still attain more theory, because my theory seem to suck damn badly. Hmm.. just wait.. I will come back for PRCP with a good and powerful memory.. hahaha..

Argh.. I accidentally burnt my new dress last Saturday. So frustrating and yet i still feel like crying. It was so expensive. Cried till my eyes were small. Hiazz.. I so need to go get a new outfit already. I have been slowly evacuating all the old clothes, but apparently it's not really working. The reason being, I have either too many clothes or either i burnt my clothes.. Like the one that i had just burned on Saturday. Hiazz (I really must stop sighing already).. It has been really a long time since i got myself new clothes. Can't wait to go shopping and get few new clothes once the attachment is over.

Can't seem to have time going shopping with dearest mummy. Either I'm too tired after work or either I have counseling classes every Saturday. But these 2 weeks i have not been attending my counseling class due to tiredness (hmm.. i seem to be getting lazier. I should enroll myself in another type of activity.. maybe i should go take up yoga or maybe kick boxing.. hahaha) and my case study. But finally my case study is finished. So, this time round i don't have any excuse to be absent for the Saturday counseling class. Can't wait to get my part-time diploma psychology and counseling certificate soon. hehehe.. I hope everything will goe smoothly that way graduation won't be delayed anymore....

Best year ever!! Getting 2 diploma certificates (Diploma in nursing & Diploma in Psychology and Counseling) in 1 year.. hahaha..

Hmm so what will i be when I graduate??? ... You will know when the time comes.. hehehe..

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-04-17T13:49:00.002+08:00

17 April 2010,

1st week of attachment,

It's the end of the first week of attachment, and i'm currently feeling tired. I have to say after about nearly a year i have not attended any attachments, i seriously need to brush up on my skills. Still a little rusty here and there. But i'm still trying my very best. Even though during the 1st week of attachment i experience some stressful situation due to someone, i still felt that i need to work triple hard to feel in place. I'm not really sure why i felt out of place but some how or rather i think i was able to survive through the 1st round by ending the 1st week with no problems. Feeling elated, I'm treating myself out today, later i guess... Hahaha..

Hmm.. there seem to be so much thing to do after this. I hope next week of attachment will be even better. Hoping for the best.

To Henry, happy birthday uncle!! hahaha.. Oh and to Siti, congratulations on the marriage and the on coming baby girl..

Super Junior Boys In City Season 3 Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

Part 6

Part 7

Part 8

Part 9

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-04-09T18:14:00.000+08:00

09 April 2010,

Finally,

Oh, blogger skins community is getting more and more dull each time i login. Most of the template were not too bad but others were really utterly rubbish. It was suppose to be the time of the month for me to change my blog skins but unfortunately none of it were to my liking. It took me almost the whole day trying to find a nice blog skin. Upon failing to decide which is the nicest, i decided not to change it for the time being. Hmm.. no offense but seriously.... no wonder a lot of netizens nowadays uses wordpress or tumbler.

And so my mission for today has failed..

Oh finally, I'm able to upload it. It really took a long time. Sorry, Sorry. I promised you that i will show you guys the uploaded version of all the pictures of fana's engagement ceremony right? Well there were too many. It wasn't about 100 pictures.. It was more than about 130. What you see is basically a compilation of everyone's contribution. I really thank you guys from the bottom of my heart. Sorry if it's very bad. There were some problems during the process of uploading. I hope you guys will understand. Oh and don't worry about the photos. Once the photos has been sent for printing i let you (cuzzies, uncles, aunties) know about it k.

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-04-05T15:29:00.002+08:00

05 April 2010,

Last week of holidays,

It's the last week of my holidays and i'm trying to make full use of it. Can't wait to be free from all those daily nagging. Ever since mummy stopped working, the nagging became much worst. I'm not sure if it's the menopause issue or must be because of the old age thing. Don't understand. Hahaha.. Glad that sis is getting a house soon. Can't wait for my turn too.

Oh and finally after 5 trips to the dermatologist centre, my face is finally recovering. Having to take hormone pills every morning is very tiring. And apparently it has been affecting me quite a bit. My patience slowly starts to wear off when ever i'm facing something difficult. Another would be not being able to remember things that i say when i get all frustrated for nothing. Don't worry i'm not having dementia. Hahaha.. Trying my very best to control currently but apparently it's not working. I hope it would be a short side effect.

The whole family spent some time out last saturday at swensens earl's. Yes of course with abang mohaideen. We went out to celebrate mummy's birthday. Celebrated it earlier due to mummy celebrating her birthday at batam with daddy this week as daddy had taken his off days. So while they spent some quality time together, we, will be in Singapore having fun. Hehehe.. Hmm.. there will be some activity lined up just for the 3 of us. It will be great. hahaha.. Ok maybe not a lot of fun as fiyah has to go to school during the day and fana will be working in shifts. Hmm.. oh well. Hahaha.

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-03-31T14:17:00.002+08:00

31st March 2010,

Holiday ending soon,

It's the 4th week of my holidays.. so i think. Hahaha. Oh sorry for taking a long time uploading my entry. Have been a bit busy last few days with dearest elder sis montage. Yes, of course, she has finally pass out from the academy. Accompanied mummy to her passing out ceremony at HTA in replacement of daddy who last minute back out due to some last minute problem at work. Mummy was practical angry at him till she kept complaining along the way to HTA. Hahaha.. Oh well, the ceremony wasn't that grand. And I think award ceremony's in secondary schools are much better than theirs. Hehe Sorry..

Hmm but at least she is done training.. and she has finally started working full-time at one of the police division. With her around at home this few days, the need to adapt to the changes are in progress. Hahaha.. Oh by the way the actual photos of her engagement ceremony that happened on the 14 February has finally appeared. How ever it has not been printed -_-" .. Apparently her friend was too busy and so is she.. Hmm i'll try upload everything for you in my next entry ok.. So till then you have to wait.

Oh found a few old photos which was taken long time ago. I think when i was still in primary school. Thanks to Naz.. the photos are finally uploaded. But its so super old and it was so super years back. Hahaha.. Oh well..

Ah.. really missed the old days..

Oh by the way.. to atika.. Happy Belated Birthday!! Oh and to mummy.. happy birthday!! Oh and to Jannah.. Happy Birthday to you too k.. Stay happy always!!

Oh don't forget to watch Hello f(x), that will be airing on the 3rd of April.

I really love SNSD mv story version of 'RUN DEVIL RUN'. Somehow it's way better than the MV. Hahaha.. Hmm I guess because with the story some how it clicks with the meaning of the song.

Oh and the new 'Heartbreaker' song by G-Dragon ft. Flo. Rida, sounds much better than the original version of the song. Hmm i have to admit it.. Most korean songs that features american singers do sound better. I have to admit it, the songs do sound great.

Till then.. P.S. drink lots of water and don't forget to bring your umbrella when you're going out because it has been raining.

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-03-23T12:50:00.001+08:00

23 March 2010,

Ace the exam!!,

Yeah.. finally..

The exam results are finally out and guess what?? I ace it!! It's the first time. I thought i will be failing my paper. haha i guess i was wrong. Hmm.. glad that at least it is over already. Now i only have to focus on my attachment. It's now down to the attachment and PRCP. No more nonsenses. No more slacking. Hahaha.. I just need to finish my nursing and after that i'm free. It's sayounara and hello counseling. Hahaha.. Finally I would be able to pursue something that i want to do. No more pursuing other people's dreams. Too exhausted to carry on doing it anymore. Arh.. i'm whining again right? Hiazz.. ok ok, sorry, sorry.

Hmm.. but first, I think i should get well first.. Hahaha.. I'm still sick. Caught a cold last Saturday. Stupid me for forgetting to bring an umbrella when i step out of the house. Hmm.. It's ok, at least i wasn't late for class that day. Hehehe..

Oh to dearest little sis, all the best for you're this weeks test... Hmm.. Don't worry i will still keep an eye on your subjects. Hehehe..

(Oh i really love this song. Hmm.. 2AM Jo Kwon always does well in ballad. Oh and not forgetting their new song which was sang live last saturday at Inkigayo. Hmm.. They have never failed to pleased fans with their songs. I really give them 2 thumbs up for their songs.)

Take care aitz,
ciao

2010-03-18T13:34:00.000+08:00

18 March 2010,

3rd week of holiday,

It's been a long time since i updated my blog. It's almost the end of the 3rd week of holiday and next week will be the 4th week of my holidays. It seems that the holidays are slowly going to end and i hope at the end of the 1 month holidays that I'm having, i will gain something.

Haven't been doing much lately. Just going here and going there. Reading this and reading that. Revising this, revising that. Hmm and of course i have also been trying to keep myself fit by exercising. oh and not forgetting spending a lot of time with both my parents and my dearest little sis who has been on a 1 week holiday. One thing that i have achieved during my holiday would be my beloved babies.. hahaha.. dun get it wrong.. they are not real babies.. My babies are my one and only... Paper Cranes.. I've been doing as and when i can. And finally.. It has reached about over 2,000... Hahaha I'm so happy!!

Other then gaining more paper cranes, I've also gain one more experience.. That would be.. learning how to cycle...

Yes.. I know, i know.. You guys find it kinda funny right?? For a person who is already 20years old, it's shocking that i can't ride a bicycle right? Oh well.. My excuse would be because the last that i rode a bicycle was when i was about 6 years old. Can you imagine how long it has been?? Even though i frequently ride bicycles when ever we go over to east coast park for family events i would basically ride a bicycle which caters for 2 people. So basically I'm not handling the bicycle because i always sit at the back.. hahaha.. Evil right? I know.. hahaha.. So anyway, I've achieved the skills of riding a bicycle after about 2 weeks of practice at pasir ris park with the help of Mummy and Daddy. Now every evening during the weekends, the whole family (except for dearest sis, fana) would go down to pasir ris park. Hope it will continue even after i'm working.

Hmm and as you can see my face seems to be getting better.. hahaha.. I hope it will stay that way. And i hope it will faster recover before i start my attachments.

Oh and i hope that my cd's that i had ordered will come soon. It has already been more then 3 weeks since i ordered it. And i got basically cheated. They charged me more then the prices that they stated on my receipt. It seriously better be worth it and they better not charged me for delivery charges because I was basically told that it's for free.. hiazz.. what luck.. hahaha..

Oh and all the best to all of you who will be getting the results..

Here are some new songs that has just been released..

The one that i love the most would be the 2AM's new music drama 'I Did Wrong' which has been released only the 1st part.. To hear the rest of the song, you must basically get the dvd.. Hmm can't wait to get it..

Another Song that has just been released would be the SNSD 'Run Devil Run'.. I don't really like this song that much though.. Hmm i'm not really sure about you guys bah.. I hope their music drama would be a better one. Looking forward to their music drama of this song.

Oh and check out Clazziquai’s Alex new music video 'Sweet Dream'. Love the song..

Not forgetting f(x) new song 'Love thrilled'.. Oh totally love this song. Looking forward for their upcoming album..

Take care aitz,
ciao

2010-03-02T13:42:00.000+08:00

02 March 2010,

It's been a long time,

Arh.. It's been a long time seen i've updated this blog. Well finally the exam is over, currently waiting for the exam results. Hmm.. hope i'll pass it at just one try. I never liked sitting for supplementary paper but usually i have no choice. Being stupid always make me encounter failure at almost every first try of whatever I do. Hmm.. but at least at every of it, I learn something.

Since exams are practically over, I'm currently preparing myself for the Psychology and Counseling lessons and also not forgetting the upcoming attachment which will be somewhere next month. Hmm.. I hope i'll pass both of it. However just sitting for the lessons every weekend makes my brain dry. Like i mentioned in my previous entries, It uses a lot of words which is in arabic. It really has been a long time. Discovering that i'm the only one that usually takes down a lot of notes, I must be the only one who hasn't attend that class before. With the students made up of adults ranging from a marriage counselor to a principal to a newspaper journalist, it really makes me the odd one out. Hahaha.. Hmm.. However, it's great being the youngest in the class, at least i'm able to learn more about the job scope of the people around me. Hehehe..

Anyway, there has been a lot of changes happening around me and it has been very difficult for me to adapt to it. It has been really frustrating for me. I'm trying my best but apparently its not totally the best. Argh.. Just thinking about it already makes me frustrated..

Another thing that i'm frustrated about would be about the issue of my sister getting engaged. Seriously, i don't get it. What does my sister engagement which is already over got to do with the word 'betrayal'?? What's wrong with people nowadays? I don't really get most of my uncle who has basically a lot of spare time to bad mouth about other people. If you weren't invited, then it's basically nobody's fault that you are feeling betrayed. It was just a small event and not a big one. It's not even you're child. Seriously if you say it's a big event then all the cousins, uncles, aunties, friends should have been present on that day. Sometimes things don't turn out the way you want it ok. There is always a reason why things turn out the way it is. The reason why Bapak yayi (the only grandfather) wasn't invited is because.... Well why not you just figure that out for yourself?? Besides he got married the day before sister engagement day, he should be feeling tired. Don't you get it? So don't anyhow say things that didn't happen. You didn't ask, didn't came, so don't be too proud of the words you're spreading. I'm sorry if i sound as if like i'm interfering in the adult family matter but i can't help seeing my dad having to go through you're nonsense when his still sick. What's also frustrating is how my grandfather is behaving after he got married with his second wife. For a mature old age adult, his really acting like a child. I'm sorry if it sounds hurtful but I think i should make it clear about my opinion. It's sad to see most middle age and old age adults behaving like a small kid or a teenager. Oh please if you have problem with the person, just tell the person directly.. We are not outsiders but family, so it's ok to do that. Bad mouthing your own brother?? Visiting him and in the end saying bad things behind your own brother's back.. man that's childish.. Grow up!! Argh.. This is why i never like family affairs..

haha.. Ok ok.. I think I need to cool down.. The hormones are acting up again..

Hmm my acnes are getting way worst. With having to consume hormone tablets every morning, i'm constantly having mood swings. It's not my first time though but i really hate it when i'm having mood swings. Especially when i'm out with a friend or a family member. It's so unpleasant when i'm showing that frustrated or pissed off kind of behavior unknowingly. It really makes the other person feel hurt. It's ok if it occurs when i'm at home but it's not ok if it occurs when i'm out. How i wish the acne problem will be over soon.. Hiazz...

Hmm.. ok i think i'll stop writing until here.

Outsider MV..

First time i hear people rap this fast. He sure is a fast rapper.. Take a look at his just released MV.

Oh have you heard Beast new songs which was released few days ago? Love their new album. I'm so really getting one. I totally love the 1st song in the Shock of The New Era album 'Just before shock'.. Anyway also check out their new MV!!

Oh and i love Kara's new song which they have been promoting for the past few weeks.. 'Lupin'

P.S. please take care of yourself people. Drink lots of water. It has been very hot these days.

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-02-18T15:32:00.003+08:00

18 February 2010,

It's almost over,

It has been a busy week at home for the last few days. With both Mummy and Daddy sick and admitted to the hospital, it was me left to settle almost everything. Luckily there were helpers around. Without my aunties and cousins, the whole thing would go crazy. Luckily i do not need to worry so much about the food as my aunties were the ones who cooked. Hahaha.. It was sleepless nights. Settling this and that, going up and down hospital, shopping for this and that. People might have thought that i was busy preparing for Chinese New Year instead. hahaha..

Above are part of the gifts from our side...

Above are the presents from the male side..

There was a certain twist in the Engagement Ceremony which was held on the 14th of February 2010. Normally the male is not allowed to go up as well but apparently Abang Mohaideen just doesn't want to leave the excitement. Hahaha.. There were the feeding of sweets ceremony. So yeah, you can call that different. Hahaha..

Luckily the ceremony went smoothly throughout, so I don't really care much what happens next that day. Thanks to all the aunties, uncles, cousins, and 2 of dearest sis friends who attended and came over to help out on that occasion. Sorry if things don't turned out very well. I've tried my best. It's the first time carrying out an eventful occasion without both my parents.

I hope that it will be the last occasion that I'm helping out. Hahaha.. The next time when she is getting married, I'm so going to fly overseas if i have to do a lot of labour work. Hahaha.. Sorry sis but I'm really dead tired.. hahaha..

The day after the engagement Mummy and Daddy were discharged from the hospital. But they were still sick. Hiazz... I was pretty angry with my dearest sis for not handling the matter very well. Why would the doctor discharge the patient when the patient is still sick? Doesn't make sense right? Hiazz..

With the engagement ceremony over, my main focus is to look after both my parents as well as study. With the noise pollution in the neighborhood, studying has been pushed back to night time. Gosh, how i wish things happen just little by little and not at one go. Hmm.. Oh well like they say no matter what you have to take up the responsibility.

Missed my counseling class last saturday so i can't afford to miss it anymore. I'm already behind topic so i think i should ask for help. hahaha.. Arh!! It reminds me, i haven't bought my counseling textbook. Maybe I should go get it tomorrow since i'm going to see the dermatologist doctor again tomorrow. Yes, my face is getting worst. And yes i will try and see other doctors if this still doesn't work. Don't worry guys. And thanks for the concern people. I really appreciate it. I will try to be stress free and i will take a lot of precaution. Don't worry. hahaha..

Finally settled the problem with the school manager. I hope this situation won't happen again. It really stress me out. The upcoming posting is drawing nearer and so is the exam. I hope i would be able to pass it. I'm not that smart but i'll try my very best. Oh and all the best for the upcoming exam.

Oh and sorry about the unclear of the pictures posted, it wasn't taken by me but i'll try my best to get the original ones, once the original pictures has been burned to the cd, I'll post it up again.. haha.. thousands of apologies!!

Please take care of yourself people!! P.S. don't forget to drink lots of water and stay healthy!!

Anywayz, Happy Valentine's Day!! and Happy Chinese New Year!!

Take care aitz,

ciao

2010-02-06T15:27:00.000+08:00

06 February 2010,

Exhausted,

Arh.. the power of psychology.. hahaha.. Just kidding. Totally drained out. No idea what's wrong with me. The first lesson of psychology and counseling class and I'm already lost. hahaha.. That's because they used all those Arab wording. Thought they don't use it anymore, didn't know that it's still incorporated. I seriously need help with my Arab. It really has been a long time since I studied Arab. Haha deserve it suhailah.. so much on wanting to take up the course. hahaha..

It's already the 3rd round of revising and I hope it will really help. With the upcoming exam round the corner, the last thing that I want would be failing. But I guess today I will not revise.. Other then the noise coming from the corridor of the house, I'm currently tired. Hahaha.. I know i should not complain but have been out since yesterday morning. Went to see the dermatologist doctor at Mount Elizabeth Hospital. Had blood test and what not. Then accompanied mummy and aunty jo out. Hmm.. Then today early morning already went out. hahaha Anyway I hope my face gets better.

Hmm.. talk about exhausting... It reminds me.. I'm so not really looking forward for next week.. Arh.. I'm totally going to die of tiredness.. hahaha.. Busy, Busy, Busy...

K until here, I really don't know what I'm typing.. Hmm I guess I'm not in the mood right now. hahaha..

Take care aitz,

ciao